I hope for a future where hope is no longer possible

I had this fleeting feeling,
deep inside my gut.
That life was going nowhere,
was trapped within a rut.

Driven part by desperation,
part by fears of being alone,
I shut down aged defenses,
demolished walls of stone.

I learnt to trust in people
and even tried to smile.
The evil hands of depression,
stopped groping for a while.

But by abandoning cold logic,
by following my heart,
I left myself vulnerable,
while my soul was torn apart.

Till the day that I succumb,
to the pleasant peace of death,
I'm giving up hope on hope,
while I wait to take my last breath.