I despise being human

I'm afraid to be human,
afraid of the pain,
from a dentist's drill or rheumatism,
whever it rains.

I'm tired of being human,
yet too imsoniac to sleep.
Not even after counting
an entire farm of sheep.

I'm frustrated that i'm human,
that I'm too impatient to wait.
That my mistimed intentions
are either too early or too late.

I despise being human.
I despise the games we play.
I despise myself most,
for the chances I let slip away.

I wish I wasn't human.
I'm sorry, I truly am.
I wish I knew how to appreciate,
a universe in a grain of sand.

Yet I'm born and bred human,
so human I shall be.
I'll exploit any loophole,
I'll take anything that's free.

I'll continue to waste resources,
chop down all damn trees.
I'll pretend that global warming
is a myth that don't exist.

I'll long and lust for riches,
for that I'll go to war.
And then I'll justify it,
with religion morals or law.

Yes I despise being human
and what humanity stands for.
I've had enough of humans.
No. I can't take it anymore.